why is this happening?

-some crazy psychopath is gonna bring a knife to school. just to prove to everyone that she's not a chicken, and she's not a poser, and she's not a lier. we all know she's not brave enough to go forth in the act of bringing a knife, but it still scares the crap out of me.

-my bestest friends have been being kind of mean to her. they talk about her behind her back. i'm basically a neutral party. i don't take part in the crazy things they do to bring her down because i know how it felt to be completely hated by the people you used to trust and love.

-she wants to stab my bestest friend.

-i started crying in art because of it. no amount of words or actions could really express how i would feel if she were to bring a knife to school and stab my bestest friends. i cannot shake that from my skin. because in the back of my mind, i'm left to wonder the what-ifs. what if she really does bring a knife to school? what if she really does kill my bestest friend? i don't even want to think about it the thought is so horrible.

-and what if she killed jeremy? what then? fuck. i need to stop thinking about this. NOW. before i start getting uber crazy thoughts in my head. then i won't be able to sleep. oh crap.

-why is this happening?

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